happy hour

“Many people try to find a spiritual path where they do not have to face themselves but where they can still liberate themselves, in fact.  In truth, this is impossible.  We cannot do that.  We have to be honest with ourselves.  We have to see our gut, our real shit, our most undesirable parts.  We have to see that.  That is the foundation of warriorship and the basis of conquering fear.  We have to face our fear: we have to look at it, study it, work with it, and practice meditation with it.”  –Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

“There are numerous  sidetracks which leads to a distorted, ego-centered version of spirituality; we can deceive ourselves into thinking we are developing spirituality when instead we are strengthening our egocentricity through spiritual techniques.  This fundamental distortion may be referred to as spiritual materialism.”  –Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche


train wreck nativity scene

“The goal of individuation is not narcissistic self-absorption, as some might believe, but rather the manifestation of the larger purposes of nature through the incarnation of the individual.  Each person, however insignificant in geopolitical terms, is the carrier of some small part of the telos of nature, the origin of which is shrouded in mystery but whose goal is conceivably dependent upon the enlargement of consciousness.  If that be true, and I believe it is, then the task of individuation is wholeness, not goodness, not purity, not happiness.  And wholeness includes the descent which the psyche frequently imposes upon the unwilling ego.” –James Hollis, Swamplands Of The Soul

Modes Of Descent

weird voynich

sacrificial goat.  scapegoat.  schizoid.

initiator.  light-bearer.  wounded healer.

red book.  lizard king.  serpent of salvation.

beast 666.  sophia.  lucifer restored.  destroyer.

Visita Interiora Terrae Rectificando Invenies Occultum Lapidem


dsmviii manuallaunam iiivmsd   dsmviii manuallaunam iiivmsd

alphabet of fo tebahpla                                  alphabet of fo tebahpla

corner renroc                     O                  O                            corner renroc

abc cba        O                       O                                   O                         abc cba

z                                 O                                                                                 z

Vagabond Alien Broadcast

static bath water trots the dotted lines of halogen glass and glo paint stained window panes littering the laudanum cracked gavel scrap labyrinth.  maniacal eyed tiger blind witch clown hell hound loudly shouts, My magdalene hatter is a devil in a deerskin slough.